The weekends are very hard and want to make me poke my eyes out. I want to come home to be honest. I don’t like what I’m doing and I am about out of patients. Yet, here I am refusing to leave. I know God placed me here. I know I was called here. So when am I going to enjoy my calling? The next thought in your head will be, “Trust in the Lord and find joy in your suffering.” I think it would be easier to find joy in being whipped to death in some 1st century dungeon at least they would be beating me because I love Jesus. And before you say, “So are these people,” they treat everyone this way. I can’t live this way for a year. When will I enjoy what the Lord has called me to do? When will I wake up every day and say, “Yes! I am so excited to be doing this!” You will next think say that where you are and it will be so. Honey I gone to academically challenging schools since I was 9 and I can’t trick my brain like that. So I will just complain a lot to you folks.
On a different not Benny pooped his pants on Saturday and that sucked. He was very upset and I had 6-year-old poop on my hands. Something hadn’t agreed with him. It was not firm poop.
I think my Patron and Baba are becoming part of a pyramid scheme right now. They are downstairs with two shady guys from the States. They’re investing in some kid of new age medicine that involves electricity. If you ask me it sounds like electro shock therapy and that is a bad choice. It is gonna be a sad day if they get had. Just saying.
Patron is a little crazy. She can’t find time to do homework with Benny and tonight he did it at 8:45. He is so tired he is crying. Then she is being all crazy about his cursive letters. He is 6 and it is way past his homework time. He is very tired. What are you thinking?
"Now my heart is troubled, and what should I say? Father, save me from this hour? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name." John 12: 27-28
Friend, today in church the Lord brought a verse to my attention. I think it applies to your life as much right now as it does mine. love you.
ReplyDelete"Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass." 1 Thessalonians 5:24
He has called you to do a work right now. It's not one you can complete on your own but it is one that He has faithfully promised to bring to pass.
jess, you may not ever enjoy it! but that doesn't mean good won't come out of it. remain faithful, keep seeking the lord and he will guide you. i am praying for you and miss you.
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